Silence!! my friend…

what an agonizing pain I silently tolerate. what an excruciating loss I deny in a hollow look and vain smiles.. Silence is gold they say; yet my gold is tarnished I must say.. I’m aching in silence  ..  I try to  bring the joy ,and ease the most restless souls ,  I try to help others by all means, and even make them laugh at their misfortunes.. what could be more Nobel than that.. However.. and though I’m trying to treat myself with  such nobility ..yet the mere idea that I might make  someone sad and even shed tears due to pains and fears I bear inside, intimidate me and force me to keep it all inside , locked behind hidden doors..