To thee ..It’s not my loss.

I didn’t know whether you were my friend or my foe.. or was it possible that I had a distorted vision of what we stood for.. All I know that I’m better off  you now .. I regret the time when I couldn’t protect or even depend on myself , such vulnerability magnified your presence in my life.. a presence that turned into a sad fading memory now.. To Thee , the one who failed me, I wish I could go back  in time when we first met , to deal with you not as a friend or a foe , but as a simple stranger , ironically as we are now..

Silence!! my friend…

what an agonizing pain I silently tolerate. what an excruciating loss I deny in a hollow look and vain smiles.. Silence is gold they say; yet my gold is tarnished I must say.. I’m aching in silence  ..  I try to  bring the joy ,and ease the most restless souls ,  I try to help others by all means, and even make them laugh at their misfortunes.. what could be more Nobel than that.. However.. and though I’m trying to treat myself with  such nobility ..yet the mere idea that I might make  someone sad and even shed tears due to pains and fears I bear inside, intimidate me and force me to keep it all inside , locked behind hidden doors..